Collected Thoughts

I usually don't make New Year's Resolutions because I never keep them. I have a terrible record with them. I usually dread the New Year because it's always meant one more damn year of trying and never quite getting it right and never figuring it out and why can't I just pull myself together?

Except last Jan, I finally had it all within my reach. I had the tools and the knowledge and I just had to put it all together and take those steps. It was like all the times before when I was blindly flailing in the dark and hoping to god I got something right.

I know there's that What were you doing 15 yrs ago Meme that keeps floating around...but, god, I don't even want to dwell on 15 yrs ago because I've held on to that for too damn long. It's been a weight dragging me down.

So last Jan I took those first steps and I did good. So I can make resolutions because they'll get resolved.

Resolution the First--School. Enrolled so all i have to do is stick with it and get through it.

Dancing--Spring Showcase. With me in it!

Social--get out more. General but I'm not sure how to be more social. So I'm giving myself 3 months to at least come up with some way to be more social.

Medical--keep taking the medicine and going to therapy. It got me this far.

Write more. Fiction, in my lj. Etc.

Addendum to the Social. Develop better friendships with the people I know. God, I have email, I can use it.

So that's it. My New Year's Resolutions.