Collected Thoughts

So one of the two people I really can't stand on the Pheonix Board wants to change their user name. As if this will make a difference. Of course now I'm afraid I won't recognize this person...although I think I'll recognize the style. dumbass belligerence. I wish that everyone else would just ignore this person. Don't respond! And for the love of god don't COMM.

I'm in a bitchy crabby mood, so much so that I'm glad the cat got off my lap so I can change the cd to another song...I can't find my remote.

I was so frustrated at school. Not with the stuff, because Excel is making more sense the more I read it, however I wish I could go into more detail. My instructor is pissing me off. So there are high school girls in my class, dual enrolled and this is fine, but they talk, they goof off, and my instructor tells them to be quiet and they aren't. You know why? Because not a damn thing ever happens. Oh sure, they are threatened with something but hell our instructor is a pushover and she wants to be liked so she doesn't do anything and they know it.

We aren't supposed to play online games on the computer becaues it eats up bandwidth and they'll take away Internet privelages, I'm not sure about just going online...but anyway
...she tells them to stop and they don't. She threatens to have them blocked and they don't stop beacuse she won't really.

And you know what? It's fucking easier to work with the girls talking and playing games because they are quieter than when our instructor is making empty threats.

Plus her voice annoys me and I have voice issues. Today she was talking about how smoky the room was...it wasn't smoky that I could tell but I guess she's extremely allergic and someone had gone out and smoked and come back in. So she kept going on about it and apologizing for opening the door. Just SHUT UP!

And then there is the kid (except he's like 22) with some kind of developmental delay, he's not dumb, but socially he's...anyway. He can't modulate his voice and today it was grating me. And then at the end of the class he was telling someone how they should use AIM instead of AOL because AIM was free. Except, you know, they are two different things. And the guy he was talking to and I were trying to tell him that and he finally got it, but then he goes of and prints up all this stuff about the ISP he uses.

He's not supposed to print out anything except what he needs for assignments because he printed out 150 pages on the laser printer of something. And now we are really low on toner. Freaked the instructor out becasue the budget is tight and she doesn't know when she can get more toner.

Now, this wouldn't bother me except I think I'm pmsing.

The thing is I just got over PMS. I have to call my GP or maybe my shrink and see if there's something I can do. Because I can't end up on an emotional rollercoaster 2 weeks out of the month. That's just insane.

Not to mention I feel stupid when it comes to the stuff going on at the Pheonix Board, I can't keep up with what's going on in Burearcracy, I can't remember what that damn q word means to save my life. Not to mention I end up feeling completely inarticulate and stupid whenever I get into these discussions lately. Or any discussion outside of light weight stuff.

Shit I hate feeling like this.