Collected Thoughts

I started taking a new med to help me sleep and it's giving me vivid dreams. Not weird dreams, just taking semi realistic things and making them seem really real. Like I sometimes wake up and I'm not sure...did I dream it? Did I see it?

Last night one of the dreams was about Battlestar Galatica. I dreamed that I just caught it on tv, it started earlier than it was supposed to and CKR had a bigger role than anyone thought. A kick ass role too. He was a bad guy, but he was a vicious, gleeful bad guy. Think Russell Crowe's character in Virtousity...having a damn good time at being evil. Now that I'm awake I can't remember exactly what CKR's character was doing, but he locked someone in an airlock and he ended up with a bloody face and laughing and taunting the guy about to be sucked out of the airlock. Also running around with guns blazing.

I kept thinking... "I need to call {everyone at discourse}, tell them that this is on." But I couldn't look away from the tv, because I wasn't taping the show and this was the only time it was going to be on ever. I don't know how I knew that I just knew. I didn't think "everyone at discourse" I pictured the associations I have that go with the names.

Anyway freaky dream. Then it segued into a dream where the big football game wasn't on until 11 pm and Dad and I slept through it.

The dreams are weird but kinda fun, so far nothing anxiety provoking. I just don't want to have nightmares.

Yesterday I read an editorial by someone, I'm too lazy to look it up, that said basically "I love gays and I'm not homophobic. Really. But I don't think they should get married. Because marriage is about a biological family unit." And maybe there was something in there about how same sex couples shouldn't be raising kids.

I hate the whole marriage=the ability to have kids arguement. No one applies that to straight couples, that if straight couples can't have children, then they shouldn't get married. Maybe there are fringe groups out there, but the mainstream doesn't say that. I can just imagine the outrage.

Then there's the whole "marriage isn't all that great" arguement. Suddenly all these people, who probably freak at the idea of straight couples living together without getting married, try to say "well it's not that great. So don't bother." But every time I read that argument it's confusing living together and the actual benefits of marriage. Living together is hard to do, but marriage offers benefits and legal protections and rights.

Plus the whole argument of well, having legal drawn up documents granting each other power of attorney and what not is almost as good as getting married, so why don't these people just be happy is so....

It's about equal rights damnit. About no second class citizens.

Another thing that pissed me off was on CNN, I think, some guy with his own show, was talking to various people and kept saying "well what if we call it barriage". Dude no! That doesn't help. Marriage. Marriage. Marriage.

Thank god this Thanksgiving there were no political or social issues brought up within my hearing or I might have gone off on someone or stalked out of the house in frustration.

Gah. People confuse me.