Collected Thoughts

I really need to cut down on my caffiene consumption because it makes me twice as nervous and freaked. Dad coming home and the place looking bad and mygod I'm not ready yet is nerve wracking enough.

Tonight I watched ABC News Tonight and they had a piece on sending mail to soldiers and how the Department of Defense is asking that only family and close friends send packages (supposedly becuase of the attacks on convoys) and that people should not send packages to Any Soldier, even Attn: Any Soldier.

See Wednesday I discovered anysoldier.com that has a list of contacts of soldiers who will get mail sent to them and distribute it to others in their group, unit, whatever it's called. You send it to their name Attn: Any Soldier.

So me being me I ran out and bought a bunch of stuff and was going to get ready to send it and now I see this and it just pushes my caffienated already stressed brain into "Omigod! How can they do that! Is it accurate????" I sent off an email to the website and I hope I'll get an answer. I'm thinking that maybe going to work Thursday was a bad idea.

What's come to me, recently, is that I'm very very undisciplined. Which I actually already knew but it was one of those things I'd rather wish away than deal with but it must be a sign of maturity and sanity that I'm tired of wishing away a great deal of things and that's one of them.

However, I'm not exactly sure how to move to be more discplined except to just do it and not just doing it is the problem. This has to be the big huge thing I talk about when I see my therapist. It's times like this when I wish there was a pill to fix everythind and who cares about trying.

I'm so over caffienated and stressed and which only makes me want caffiene more.