Collected Thoughts

I have a headache. I barely ate anything today. Mostly I'm trying to cut back to no diet cokes and only a little caffiene. I can't go cold turkey. I'm going to have to figure a better way to make iced tea. And figure out why we never have ice, or don't seem to have a pitcher.

Also I debated on whether or not to expand on "Judas" and decided to keep it a snapshot. I think it's whole like it is, more of a black and white portriat, with the play of shadows and light. I want to explore the ideas of Wesley and betrayal, of how Wesley might have felt betrayed. I have to go back and watch, get inside his mind again. Wesley is a complicated character. He's arrogant and insecure. So I'm sending "Judas" round to lists and archives. Silverlake, Watchers Girls, Glass Onion, Buffy Fiction Archive. Um, not all tonight becuase I'm tired but tomorrow definitly. If there's a Buffy related/mulitfandom mailing list I should know about please let me know. Especially one that has discussion.

I also got an idea on how to get passed a road block on my "longer" Wes story. I use longer in quotes because I don't really write long stories. I promise I'll stop teasing about that soon and finish it.