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askye at 12:08pm on 22/03/2020
askye at 12:08pm on 22/03/2020 I'm on Day 4 (I think) of not going to work. Supposedly we are going to go back on March 31st but I some how doubt that. We are getting paid our scheduled week for last week and then 23 hours or so this week and then.. who knows.
Yesterday I went out for a walk but it was way way too crowded so I'm going to stick with laps in the backyard. We aren't under Shelter in Place orders or anything like that but I am trying to avoid going out.
I took my debit card out wiht me on my walk y esterday in case I wanted to stop at the convenience store and then last night I couldn't find it so I put a hold on it and have to call tomorrow to get a new one, unless I find it today. Hopefully they can expedite the replacement. Fun fact there is not a physical location of my bank with a drive thru that is close to me. Not that I need to spend money but I have bills to pay and am locked out of my account from the website. so fun times.
My bf's mom is stressing me out. Living with someone who has paranoid schizophrenic during a pandemic is tiring. She is taking her meds and she is stable but she won't quit watching the news. ANd she's bored and she has a short attention span and a bad memory and doesn't read, do puzzles (crossword, search a word, jigsaw), listen to audio books etc so she watches tv whcih has the news. And she is worried about people breaking into the house to steal our food. Not to the point where she is tryign to protect the house but she keeps mentioning it. But she also hates being stuck inside so she keeps leaving the house for a variety of reasons. Today she was going to go to Wal Mart because they have bread and milk etc but are only limiting it to 1 per person so she wants to get some food so we don't run out. We have enough food to last us at least 2 weeks before we have to stock up at all. IT would be nice to get some more fresh produce this week but honestly we 'd be fine without. But we only have one back up loaf of bread and 1 gallon of milk so that's not enough.
I just want to go back to work. I'm worried I'll be laid off. I work in retail, odds are it will happen at some point this year. So Bf's mom keeps asking if I'm going to apply for unemployment... i keep explaining I'm not unemployed right now, "well you can work some and get unemployment" ok but I'm actually employed full time right now so ...
And I'm bored. I know there are things I could be doing but I have no motiviaion. Apparently I'm only motivated right now to log into Second Life, and then just stand around doing nothing while I go back and reread Die Hard fanfic on AO3. I don't know why a fandom with less than 700 stories has become my comfort thing but it has. Ihaven't seen any of the movies in years and it doesn't look like they are streaming anywhere I can get so I'm just reading the fic. and the stories are all running together so I'm getting things confused.
I kind of want to do somethings like bake but I really also don't have a lot of motivation. Also I didn't take my ADD meds today because I'm trying to take less in case there are issues iwth getting some and I really need it. Plus it's expensive.
I'm kind of spinning around where I want to do things but nothing seems like the right thing and it's just blah. I look back at all the times when I've isolated myself from the world and it was ok and I'm not that person. It's harder for me to disassociate (whcih would be really nice at times now) and even though before this I just went to work and came home for the most part there were still things I did and I liked being out in the world.
Yesterday I went out for a walk but it was way way too crowded so I'm going to stick with laps in the backyard. We aren't under Shelter in Place orders or anything like that but I am trying to avoid going out.
I took my debit card out wiht me on my walk y esterday in case I wanted to stop at the convenience store and then last night I couldn't find it so I put a hold on it and have to call tomorrow to get a new one, unless I find it today. Hopefully they can expedite the replacement. Fun fact there is not a physical location of my bank with a drive thru that is close to me. Not that I need to spend money but I have bills to pay and am locked out of my account from the website. so fun times.
My bf's mom is stressing me out. Living with someone who has paranoid schizophrenic during a pandemic is tiring. She is taking her meds and she is stable but she won't quit watching the news. ANd she's bored and she has a short attention span and a bad memory and doesn't read, do puzzles (crossword, search a word, jigsaw), listen to audio books etc so she watches tv whcih has the news. And she is worried about people breaking into the house to steal our food. Not to the point where she is tryign to protect the house but she keeps mentioning it. But she also hates being stuck inside so she keeps leaving the house for a variety of reasons. Today she was going to go to Wal Mart because they have bread and milk etc but are only limiting it to 1 per person so she wants to get some food so we don't run out. We have enough food to last us at least 2 weeks before we have to stock up at all. IT would be nice to get some more fresh produce this week but honestly we 'd be fine without. But we only have one back up loaf of bread and 1 gallon of milk so that's not enough.
I just want to go back to work. I'm worried I'll be laid off. I work in retail, odds are it will happen at some point this year. So Bf's mom keeps asking if I'm going to apply for unemployment... i keep explaining I'm not unemployed right now, "well you can work some and get unemployment" ok but I'm actually employed full time right now so ...
And I'm bored. I know there are things I could be doing but I have no motiviaion. Apparently I'm only motivated right now to log into Second Life, and then just stand around doing nothing while I go back and reread Die Hard fanfic on AO3. I don't know why a fandom with less than 700 stories has become my comfort thing but it has. Ihaven't seen any of the movies in years and it doesn't look like they are streaming anywhere I can get so I'm just reading the fic. and the stories are all running together so I'm getting things confused.
I kind of want to do somethings like bake but I really also don't have a lot of motivation. Also I didn't take my ADD meds today because I'm trying to take less in case there are issues iwth getting some and I really need it. Plus it's expensive.
I'm kind of spinning around where I want to do things but nothing seems like the right thing and it's just blah. I look back at all the times when I've isolated myself from the world and it was ok and I'm not that person. It's harder for me to disassociate (whcih would be really nice at times now) and even though before this I just went to work and came home for the most part there were still things I did and I liked being out in the world.