askye | (no subject)

I am trying to get in shape. I am really really out of shape and my heaviest weight - around 254 lbs. I'm getting the least amount of exercise of any in my life.

I joined WW but I've been slacking off and I need to get back at it, I'm trying to combine Clean Eating stuff with WW and use the menu planner in the CE Magazine to help me get on track, it usually translates to fewer points than I need, so then I can add things in.

Exercise is the big thing, but today I did one of the Biggest Loser Wii game exercises nothing to strenous, before I started working at my current job I could have done it easily but not now.

At my other job there was the long walk to and from the car to the office, plus getting up and walking around during the day AND going up and down stairs.

Now there's a short walk across the parking lot, and I sit at my desk except for my 2 breaks and lunch. I could use one of the breaks to walk down the street and back which I need to start doing.

I hate feeling like this and I hate looking like this.

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This is the stuff that I ended up in the hospital this week from. Take care of you, love yourself enough to get enjoyable exercise and eat good, satisfying food that gives your body the best fuel to get through the day. I hope you manage to keep your spirits up and sink as far as I did.

::hugs::

I mean, keep from sinking as far as I did.

I'm sorry you had to see my body image demons creeping up.
My goal isn't a number on the clothes or on the scale, it's to be able to move around easier. That's what I keep telling myself. That's the big thing I realized, is that more than the numbers on the scale I'm really really out of shape to the point where I can't do some of what I used to.

It wasn't triggering for me to read what you wrote. I just feel very sad that you have to feel that way too. I don't know how to make it go away for myself, but I wish I could absorb it up from you so you do not have to suffer.

::hugs::