Collected Thoughts

My home life is so toxic right now. It doesn't feel like it is all the time but if I'm at home on my day off everything turns into an argument with someone.

And M's mom has decided to quit smoking cold turkery-- she was smoking a pack or 2 a day. So that's made things worse. It's usually M and his Mom get into fightrs but it's not too bad and then I come home and we haven't seen each other and so it's just low level saying the wrong things.

The problem for both of us is that we will get Ideas about Doing Something but not communicate the Idea to the other person and then it leads to issues. Also a lot of hangry goes on.

I'm tired. Why could I possibly be tired? I went from walking a decent amount to walking an insane amount at work---I'm doing about 30,000 + steps a day since moving to Buy online Pick up In Store (BOPIS) Picking person. I'm in the group text thing now as well. It feels all official

Also there's been more stress as people are trying to figure out things and we are realizing that we don't have staffing coverage. Today and tomorrow almost all the people working in BOPIS are off. Because most of us weren't scheduled for BOPIS when the schedule was made. I did notice the schedule was taken down so adjustments are being made. And there is the stress of trying to find things in the ever dwindling number of merchandise for some things. Like some areas look really picked over and some are super full and I can't even figure out the logic on most of it. And we have tons of new brands we are carrying since a lot of the ones we were carrying wanted us to order the same amount this year as last. (this has been happening since spring/summer).

AND we are now getting spring/summer items in but also winter items in. I don't get it but I guess we are being sent what we have.

I have way more customer interaction than I did picking fulfillment, not sure why. But it's getting tiring having to deal with customers who want to pay me for items instead of finding a checckout or wait in line. Or have them say it's so "sad" to see our store failing. It's not failing! Most of the items are going out the door we just don't have as much as last year so we won't have as much clearance.

The big focus is on BOPIS. And yesterday when I got in I got a call and was asked to pull a ship to home list, which I thought was odd becaue there wasn't that many items in the queue compared to the number of people we had. But I worked on my list and I could see there were questions about aging orders for BOPIS so I was tryign to get through everything as fast as I could.

Then the person who asked me to pull for ship to home found me and was like "you're going to hate me" and said when I finished I needed to switch over to BOPIS "Nick (the store manager) and I had a talk about it". I did not hate her, I was glad.

THEN Nick sends out this long text about how BOPIS is our #1 priority and most of our resources are to focus on that.

sooo.. that's how that went.

The shopping event you HAVE TO GET INTO!!! Opened TODAY , most likely at noon CST.

If you can't get in that's understandable as only like 36 people can be tehre at once and 100s are trying to get in.

Some events run for along time, if there's an event runing for a full month it's ok if youcan't get in RIGHT NOW , there is time. I realize some people hate waiting but it's freaking Second life and a shopping event and if you wait there will be another one.

And another round of "I can't get in! It's not fair!"

a brief Second Life rant

I get so tired of people who just act so helpless all the time and want you to spoonfeed them everything. They are in a store group chat and they obviously shop at the store and yet "can you send me a tp?" (TP is teleport, they are asking someone to send them a link to the store or a landmark to get there, instead of looking for a landmark in their inventory, looking through their teleport history or using search to find the store, or looking through group notices OR looking at the gruop profile, clicking on the group owner's profiel and finding the link in their profile). Or the person's account is years old, they talk about how they are a shopaholic in their profile or they do things like photography or like to decorate or sometimes even build and then act like they dont' knw how to do anything AT ALL .

I get there are things like bakes on mesh that can seem a little tricky but then people act like they don't know how to use an applier. "oooh I've never changed my skin..." but surely that person has used a HUD of some kind to change the pattern of their clothes or an AO or something.

I've even had people claim they don't know how to use search.

Or "Can someone send me the latest " No it's in the fucking notices, get it like everyone else did and go back and look in the notices.

Although I had a friend who said she couldn't seen notices because apparently there is a Firestorm skin that doesn't show group notices? or at least attachments or something. And once I spent a half hour trying to help someone use an applier and got more and more frustrated until I realized that this person had somehow never learned how to open a box (!??!) despite claiming to be in SL almost daily for months and had been shopping various places. And hitting up all the freebie places but apparently one of the basic steps to living in SL alluded them and it still took me way to long to explain how to rez a box, open it, take into inventory, find the folder, and then wear the items , use the HUD.

I now try to spend my time just helping people figure out Bakes on Mesh because I think it's easy and people at least have figured out how to work a mesh body to some degree in order to get to the point of trying to do Bakes on Mesh. I've found most people and notecards make it seem way more complicated than it is.

So some guest left Kudos on 2 of my Smallville fics! Those are so old and I am pretty sure there are weird word omissions in one of them. I went and reread the ... 5 or s6 stories I have on archive of our own and kind of .. cringed I guess. I mean they aren't bad it's just weird.

I wrote some other stuff but have lost them, which is too bad but between changing computers, email addresses and the years going by it happens.

But hey it's cool to konw someone still likes what I wrote.

I try to leave kudos on stories I like when I read them even if they are older or very short or whatever.

I found the Die Hard story I was looking for. I wasn't accidentally combining 2 stories I was thinking that the one story was really 2. So..now I just need to find the other story my brain has decided I need to read.

I saw The Old Guard and I really liked it, loved almost all the fight scenes. Had some issues with the way they were shot--- a couple times it was too close up and I wanted to be able to see more.

I feel terrible for saying this but I really wasn't impressed with Joe's love speech. I mean I liked the words , the words were fine, the delivery was... too rehearsed in a way. You know how in Ocean's Eleven Danny makes his pitch to Rusty and then asks if it was rushed? Joe's speech felt rushed. It felt rushed and like he was reciting Shakespeare or something... and starts hurrying instead of feeling more organic.

Anyway I went looking for vids for The Old Guard, it's a movie there's not a ton of material and I was just poking around on youtube and OH GOD they ALL use dialog from the movie over the music. I hate that in vids. Make your vid strong enough I don't need the dialog to understand what you are trying to convey. That bugs me and the talkign head clips over lyrics where if you know the source it makes sense to use that scene but there's nothing going on in the scene to actually convey what the lyrics are saying. I've watched vids where I have no or very little knowledge of the source material. I do realize there isn't a lot of Nicky/Joe footage to use and also that my No Talking over The Song is my personal preference I like vids where the song and the video do enough of the talking.

Soooooo turns out I am not every good at knowing who actors are . for some reason I got it in my head that the dude from Henry Cavill was the dude from person of interest , which was confusing me because of how old must Henry Cavill be for that to work out.. and.. then I was like. but the POI guy was also in Last Temptation of Christ and that really really can't be right.. so I got renewed interest in POI fic and I've been reading it picturing Herny Cavill and.. wrong person.


Actually I HAVE been pictures Jim Caviezel this whole time or like a mix of the two.

Look they are both tall ,strong jawed, dark haired actors playing the strong kinda silentish types.

Apparently the game is on massive sale on Steam and is like $15 so now I own Witcher 3.

Wait? THAT'S how it ends? LIKE THAT?

And I have to wait because of this pandemic to see more? ...at least they are trying to film more and they haven't cancelled it.

yet.

So Tired. So very tired. And it was just 6 hours today. Apparently I missed one of the busiest days we had yesterday so yay that.

Didn't get much of a break. Would rather been home reading. I really need to read The Last Wish instead of reading fanfic but I keep reading stuff and seeing the different variations of the characters, but I really need to read more of the book.

I have one more episode of the show and I'm putting it off until tomorrow. I wish the series was longer. Not 22 episodes or whatever but maybe 12 would have been nice, they could have developed some of the relationships more or showed more of what a witcher is. Although with keeping with just the story lines and "action" it's kind of how I prefer my video games.. (I skip the cinematics and get bored by the storyline, I Just want window dressing for fighting stuff....which I then do really really badly)