Collected Thoughts

 I finished Vecchio's Keys and posted it on A03 http://archiveofourown.org/works/591390?show_comments=true#comment_1864826

I already got a comment and she commented on Variations of a Kiss (my Smallville story). 

I'm so freaking happy right now and feel such a huge boost in my confidence.

 the beach trip was wonderful. But I caught a cold or something. I'm better and night before last I was up all night coughing but then it subsided. So I didn't go to the doctor.

I even took a nap. But that ended in almost disaster.  The phone rang and I sleepily stumbled out of bed and tripped on somehtng and put my hand out to brace myself -the stand fan. Only I knocked the front gaurd off (it was loose anyway) and cut myself on a blade. Barely awake  and in pain I was trying to deal with the phone and kept dropping it and finally yelled "I'll call you back" and went to stop the bleeding.

Will was calling, so I relayed the information (only badly I had to repeat myself several times) and he was worried but i told him I was fine.  The cut isn't that deep and the bleeding stopped quickly. 

He's bringing me another fan and will check out my finger for himself today or tomorrow  (he's a former firefighter with emt training so he's good about medical stuff). 


It's hot here, hotter than in Tallahassee.  94 here! UGH UGH. I went out too, which was kind of  a mistake, I was thinking of going to the library bok sale, but that's only Tuesdays. Tomorrow the high is supposed to be 85.

I got cat litter (Ii'll change it tonight) and some other stuff I needed. 

The cats have been more affectionate with the heat. I dont understand it. Dean never wants to cuddle in bed after dark, but last night he jumped on the bed and curled next to me wanting petting and loving, but he left as soon as I started coughing. And all day yesterday he kept trying to get in my lap. He's not like this Jan or Feb when it's cold! I keep putting ice cubes in their water dish. 

I need to go slather aloe gel all over and put a fan facing me. I found that's a great way to cool off.

I rescued a hummingbird on Friday. Drove 234 miles to deliver it to the rehab places (that's round trip) on Saturday. Called them today, it was an adult (just very small) but it seems to have some kind of internal injury because it can flap its wings but can't actually fly. They are going to watch it and feed it for a few more days. I keep hoping it will fly.

Dean, the cat, is underweight. I need to take him back to the vet. He's eating more, so that's good but not putting on weight. I found another poultry free grain free cat fodo but it's twice as expensive as the Natural Balance. I think I'll buy it and mix it with the Natural Balance and see how he does.

I keep wondering if it would be bad to feed him kitten formula to try and fatten him up a bit.

 Had  a good therapy session. Not sure how the temp job is going to effect that, I will probably only be able to see my therapist once a month. But I'll figure it out, however I knew it wasn't going to be forever, I won't be living here forever.

Got off my ass and FINALLY worked on dishes.  Going to therapy helps me get into gear afterwards. My apartment got so bad, not Hoarders, but Clean Sweep bad. So I'm getting out from under that.  Found plastic containers for books that don't go on the bookcases (and will double as cat perches under the windows).  I have a file box but I found a cheap file folder envelope folder thing that I can put more recent stuff in. I don't know where I'll store it, but at least I got papers in it.

Also organized some of my stuff in the bathroom.  Laundry I have to work on but I put the dishes as a bigger priority.  Yarn is stored. Various card board boxes holding stuff have been emptied stuff stored in more pleasing things and the boxes put in recycling. Got a different trash can for recycling - holds more and works better. My place still looks bad and no one could tell I've done anything but I'm seeing progress.

I'm hoping to have it look 50% better by the time Will comes back. Not perfect but better.  I still am struggling to figure out how to organize everything without enough space.  I never used a dresser, my clothes are usually in clean piles and dirty piles, but the wardrobe I have is cool, but not practical. I'm not sure how to make it practical.  And of course I don't have enough shelves for books. But I don't have tall bookcases.  One solution is to get rid of more books but.... I don't want to. At least until I read them.

 I've been surprised at how well I've managed my money this month and thinking "wow I have a lot left in the bank" . But I only have a lot left because I haven't paid any bills this month!

I forgot to pay everything. My credit card payments are late and there are fees tacked on, I haven't paid the utilities, or cable/ Rent is the only thing I've paid.

I don't even know how this happened, except I was feeling bad and then thought about paying bills, even went to the websites but didn't actually pay the bills.

So now, not so much money.

 I have a bunch of yarn that was at mom's she had a throw she started but didn't really like the pattern. So If ound another one I did like to make for her. I was all excited because it was going fast and I was practically done with the whole skien and had only had to "fix" it a few times.

Only to realize I'm doing it wrong. It's not a bad looking throw, it's just not what I was going for. The original problem I "fixed" was the actual pattern.  So now I'm starting the whole thing over again. It's supposed to be a basket weave pattern, with alternating front post double crochet and back post double crochet.  And on alternate rows you switch to back post and then front post, and it gives a weave effect. I was making sure they all lined up.

This is what I get for crocheting without a clear image of what I want.

Well, it got me through Gunless - a cute comedy although I totally didn't buy Paul Gross as an American bad guy. and I watched a few other things, most of Domino before I got tired of the way the film was edited and most of the WWI Paul Gross film I'm too lazy to look up the spelling - I didn't like the characters and gave up on it.

With something like this, at the beginning, I think I need to stick with Murder She Wrote or rewatching SGA or SG1 or something where I can pay half attention to the show and still know what's going on.

I think I'll keep it simple. My goals for this year to do more things. Try different things, cook more, be more active, push myself more.

I think it's vague enough to be doable. 

 Got my schedule for next week, finally put in a wordpad note so I won't lose it. 26 hours! I wanted more time and I got it, I hope I can squeeze in a time to get snow tires, I was going to do that today but I ended up working a temp job for Spherion - one of the places I worked before (not one that offered me a job). It was an extra 4 hours!

I had a great visit.

On my way down I got a call from the temp agency about a great job they had and they were submitting me. The job wanted someone with Publisher and Power Point experience which I don't have.  Then I heard that the temp agency considered me the best candidate  but the company wanted at least one other resume.

Today I heard that they went with the other person based on their experience with Publisher and Power Point. Which is so frustrating. I'm going to try to find some free or cheap classes in Microsoft office products so I can be up tod ate (I don't have Office on my computer).

However the part time job is still happening, I'm supposed to call Sunday to find out when I'm on the schedule. Although now I keep getting small paranoid thoughts that they are going to take the job away.

On the plus side almost all my Lands End stuff fit. There's one sweater I'm questionable about and I need a second opinion so I want to Skype with Mom. I tried to cal her today several times and she never answered, I guess she's busy.  The clogs from Lands End didn't fit but the Mary Janes did. So I'm going to return the clogs and get a pair of the Mary Janes in black.

Today I went to TJ Maxx and got some socks and wrist warmers. I didn't see gloves I liked or a hat I liked.  And I went to the shoe store and found a pair of clogs that fit and were comfortable and were affordable (versus being $120). So I bought them in black. They are patent so kinda shiny but on the black it doesn't look bad and now I've got what I need for the temp job.

I also have stuff being sent to me. Mom had a yarn stash that's now mine. And she bought some knitting and embrodiary stuff at a garage sale about 10-15 years ago. So now the knitting stuff is mine. I only ever have to buy circular needles again. This includes some pattern books.

Plus Grandma gave me some pattern books and her yarn AND her work bag! I've wanted one and now I have it. I stopped by the yarn shop and told K about it and she wants to see everything so as soon as I get it I'll take it over there for knitting.

I started a scarf, Mom found a 63 square crochet sampler with different stitches and the puff stitch was one. Except then I put in the box of stuff to be mailed (which was at Mom's house) and couldn't remember how many chains to make so I guessed and guessed wrong. But then I just kept going and I'm calling it my Chaotic Puff Stitch Scarf. I started doing sort of random things. Like 2 single crochets, then the puff stitch or alternating 2 and 3 single crochets. I think it looks neat.

 Let's see, instead of just giving my landlady the rent money in cash I wrote a check. I forgot to stick a note in that said "please don't deposit this until Monday afternoon". And then I didn't get to the bank in time and I overdrafted so that cost me an extra $25. It was suggested I ask to see if that could be waived, but I think this time I'll take the penalty.

On the plus side my cold seems to be pretty much gone.  There's still some congestion but I sound okay so I didn't call my primary care doctor. I did call the urologist and they can't see me until Thursday!  I did ask they let my urologist know I made an appointment.  Then I went and gave a urine sample at the lab. Benefit of living in a small town w/hospital - everything is easy to reach and no waiting.  I'm still on AZO, Benadryl, and ibuprofen for pain. I don't know what I took as a kid but it did something similar to  AZO only I think it was prescription and turned everything blue. I kinda miss the blue.

Oh! I finished my shawl/wrap/throw thing I made for Grandma. I realized at her size it's probably a blanket. And I'm saving it for Xmas present. I keep having to stop and start over on my Aunt J's shell scarf because the stitches get tighter and it looks wonky. Also I tried to crochet in my benadryl haze and that was just bad. I could probably do something simple.

Knitting is going okay. Purling I can't seem to get the hang of and now I'm wishing I had circular needles because I keep dropping the needles when Im starting or finishing rows. Somehow I don't remember the basics of crochet being this hard to learn. The shell pattern gave me fits at first but that was keeping the pattern straight. I guess I'll get circular needles and try it out.

And I have therapy soon and I need to remember to talk about a psychiatrist and to contact my primary care dr about getting a new seroquel prescription, its going to run out while I'm out of town.