Collected Thoughts

I was reading a very nice story about Spike and I realized that about half way through I couldn't finish. That I was looking at it and cringing and thinking about how much I hated what Spike turned into by Season 7 and trying to decide how close the story's Spike was to S7's Spike.

I don't much like Spike anymore.

Mutant Enemy pretty much destroyed my love for Spike and I'm bitter.

I used to love Something Blue. I hate it. It was funny to see Buffy and Spike becuase there was no way *that* was very going to happen. And it did.

I still fastforward through the bits with Spike in Chosen. I can't stand to see them. I'm not just anti Spike and Buffy, because that's a huge part of it, but I hate how Spike changed. To me they emasculated him. They destroyed everything I enjoyed about the character and made him a pathetic less interesting version of Angel.

Looking back on it, I liked some of the earlier episodes of S7 with Spike. Some of the earlier revelations. But now that I've seen the whole season I'm frustrated. When Wood tricked Spike and then Spike broke out of his trigger, god I wanted Spike to KILL Wood. I wanted...I wanted Spike back.

And all this one night holding Buffy was the happiest of his life crap. What about DRU for god's sake. DRU. Who he spent 100 years with. What about that? Suddenly she's all forgotten and it's as if she doesn't matter.

In fanfic a big complaint is when writers put together a couple, say Angel/Cordy and the try to invalidate Angel/Buffy. That's what the writers did to Spike/Dru. Damnit. I'm still bitter.

That wasn't my spike. And I know this is a delayed reaction but..I didn't think I'd still be this upset. I thought I'd get over it.

I wish Riley had really staked Spike. I wish Xander had staked Spike. I wish Buffy had staked Spike on any of the occasions she had. I wish Dru had mercy killed him.

The one thing I kept saying would be really cool would be if Spike died. He did and I couldn't even enjoy that becuase I was too busy trying not to pay attention to the horrid Spuffiness of the finale.

I want a refund. I want my Spike.

And My Spike...

My Spike loved being a vampire.

My Spike didn't sound like a love sick teenage boy.

My Spike may not have had a soul, but he had balls.

My Spike would never say the best night of his life was watching the Slayer sleep.

My Spike spent a hundred years loving Dru, killing with her and for her.

My Spike pulled little girls from coal bins and drained them dry.

My Spike was bad at the long range plans.

My Spike plays on your insecurities.

My Spike would have at the very least mocked anyone who used smushed names.