Collected Thoughts

I was productive today. First I went and switched my cable box to a HD DVR. I wasn't going to get the dvr part, but ...well... I don't eat out a few times a month and that covers the increase (my internet special price is running out). Then I came home and set up the tv and discovered that somehow I get all the cable channels. Even HBO, Showtime, and Cinemax. I don't know if this is a limited thing or if it's going to cut off anytime soon, but I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts.

Mom and I watched the game and when we started duing badly we switched over and watched Ms Congenality 2 on HBOD.

OMIGOD! I love HDTV. It's amazing. I'm waiting for the On Demand stuff to kick in (I was told it could take up to 24 hrs with a new box) so I can watch some hockey from Versus HD on Demand.

And furniture has been re-arranged and there's room for the recliner in the living room and I put down this rug Mom got (from the side of the road and it's kind of dirty but it can be cleaned) so now the rug marks off the "living area" and once I get my book cases up in the bedroom and out of the dining area I can make a more defined dining area.

Then in my bedroom -- I'm going to make a library corner, with a couple of bookcases and a recliner. A mini library!

I'm so disorganized and I hate myself.

Since my wallet got stolen, which was this summer, I haven't really gotten a replacement and I've just been using change purses or just throwing everthing in my purse.

Anyway, Wednesday it looks like I threw away my debit card in the trash.

Today. I had to go to the library. So I put my driver'slicesnce in my change purse and my money I got from the bank -- $60. And now I've lost it. i put the money in, I went to get dressed and then it's a blank. I thought I put it in my pocket, but I got the library to check out and it wasn't there so I thought, well I left it at home. Except it's not there, I went to the library and looked and asked and left my number hopefully someone will turn it in if it's there.

This happens to me all the time becaus eI'm so disorganized and I have no idea how to get my life on track. It's just constantly spinning my wheels and I just.. @#%#(%*#)*%@)*!!!! I can't stop cussing myself out.