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askye at 09:41pm on 26/11/2006
askye at 09:41pm on 26/11/2006I'm so disorganized and I hate myself.
Since my wallet got stolen, which was this summer, I haven't really gotten a replacement and I've just been using change purses or just throwing everthing in my purse.
Anyway, Wednesday it looks like I threw away my debit card in the trash.
Today. I had to go to the library. So I put my driver'slicesnce in my change purse and my money I got from the bank -- $60. And now I've lost it. i put the money in, I went to get dressed and then it's a blank. I thought I put it in my pocket, but I got the library to check out and it wasn't there so I thought, well I left it at home. Except it's not there, I went to the library and looked and asked and left my number hopefully someone will turn it in if it's there.
This happens to me all the time becaus eI'm so disorganized and I have no idea how to get my life on track. It's just constantly spinning my wheels and I just.. @#%#(%*#)*%@)*!!!! I can't stop cussing myself out.
Since my wallet got stolen, which was this summer, I haven't really gotten a replacement and I've just been using change purses or just throwing everthing in my purse.
Anyway, Wednesday it looks like I threw away my debit card in the trash.
Today. I had to go to the library. So I put my driver'slicesnce in my change purse and my money I got from the bank -- $60. And now I've lost it. i put the money in, I went to get dressed and then it's a blank. I thought I put it in my pocket, but I got the library to check out and it wasn't there so I thought, well I left it at home. Except it's not there, I went to the library and looked and asked and left my number hopefully someone will turn it in if it's there.
This happens to me all the time becaus eI'm so disorganized and I have no idea how to get my life on track. It's just constantly spinning my wheels and I just.. @#%#(%*#)*%@)*!!!! I can't stop cussing myself out.
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The one thing I had to teach myself was to never take anything for granted. People who live with me have to understand and allow me to be OCD about checking the stove burners twice or three times, or saying as I do it, "Putting the two twenties in the wallet in the side pocket of my purse". Being obsessive about making lists, and being just as obsessive about crossing things off as I do them helps, too. Because if I don't write it down, I'll forget to do it, and if I don't cross it off, I'll do it again.
It's all learned behavior. A counselor used to dealing with ADD people could help teach you some mechanisms, but for me, finding and making habits of my own were more helpful. Even getting out of the car is a checklist: "lights off, wipers off, windows up, stick in Park, engine off, keys in my hand, doors locked. I check twice or three times that I have the keys either in my hand or clipped to my purse before I close the door. I still manage occasionally to lock the keys in the car.
Don't beat yourself up. Just work on being methodical, on developing habits to help you cope with stuff that other people seem able to do without even thinking about it.
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