Collected Thoughts

Target has Dark Chocolate M&Ms.

I've eaten a terrible dinner and those and once again I'm feeling guilty and icky.

Went to church, once again I liked it. Very nice sermon, although I didn't get the study guide page that comes with the bulletin every Sunday. Not sure how I missed it. The study guide is just some filli n the blank sentences, and then the important quotes in teh sermon and a list of Bible verses that are referenced. Then there was a lunch in the Fellowship Hall and I sat next to a woman about my age (it seems) who is going off to seminary in July and is in the choir and tried to recruit me for the choir. I tried to explain that I can't sing, that no one wants to hear me sing, not even my own mother. But she just told me that I could learn. I was between her and the organist and they were both sort of trying to recruit me. I'll see what happens next Sunday when I go.

I stayed up too late Friday night and slept way too late on Saturday and now I feel like my weekend was wasted.

Tomorrow the department head will be back after a lengthy absence for personal reasons and I'm dreading it. I don't like this woman. I realized that partly I've enjoyed work because she's not around and now that she's coming back. Besides they will never hire me on as permenant. There's no money for it and I'm better off if I can get out.

For the discovery challenge:

I’m sitting on the couch in my apartment. Last time I was here it was all a chaotic mess: a tangle of clothes and books and trash and unopened mail obscured the floor. Emotions and thoughts careened, twisted, spilled out all over me.

Now there is stillness and the room feels hollow. There’s something I can’t place and the thought rattles around in my head like dice in a cup.

The thought. One thought.

There’s one thought in my head.

Which means my meds must be working. I must be closer to “normal”.

Dear God this is boring.

So, ask me 5 questions -- or 1 question or whatever and I'll answer. Succiently I promise.

Is there anyone living in Canada who can tape Whiskey Echo for me? It's a mini series runs May 1 & 2 (I think).

Callum Keith Rennie is in it. And it's about the Sudan. It looks interesting. I'd probably want to see if even if CKR wasn't in it.

In a related note, i've watched the first season of Twitch City. Newbie's hair kept bugging me, it reminded me of something. Then it hit me -- omigod! Greg on CSI has Newbie's hair, well except for the horrid yellow color.

I went to church today. I went to this one in November and then only went 2 Sundays. This third Sunday reinforced what I like about it so I'm going to go. The church as a nice website, with a listing of the sermons for the month and daily readings, but today's sermon was different than what the website said.

I'm not complaining though because I liked today's sermon. In November during the two sermons I heard the pastor used multiple references -- philosophers, books, Ann Landers, etc. Today the Parish Associate who was given teh sermon used Grapes of Wrath in the sermon.

The sermon was "Gentle as a Nurse" and the Old Testement reading was from (NIV) Isaiah 66:10-13:

10 "Rejoice with Jerusalem and be glad for her, all you who love her; rejoice greatly with her, all you who mourn over her. 11 For you will nurse and be satisfied at her comforting breasts; you will drink deeply and delight in her overflowing abundance." 12 For this is what the LORD says: "I will extend peace to her like a river, and the wealth of nations like a flooding stream; you will nurse and be carried on her arm and dandled on her knees. 13 As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you; and you will be comforted over Jerusalem."

The New Testement, 1 Thessalonians 2:5-8

5You know we never used flattery, nor did we put on a mask to cover up greed–God is our witness. 6We were not looking for praise from men, not from you or anyone else. As apostles of Christ we could have been a burden to you, 7but we were gentle among you, like a mother caring for her little children. 8We loved you so much that we were delighted to share with you not only the gospel of God but our lives as well, because you had become so dear to us.

The sermon focused on being an example of Christ through gentleness and nurturing. The pastor used as an example the end of Grapes of Wrath, when the family escapes up to a barn on high ground and finds a young boy there and his dying grandfather and Rose of Sharon nurses the starving man -- this, she said, is a powerful image, an unsettling image -- a Christian image. A Christian act. Rose gave of her body so this man might live, just as Jesus gave of his body so that we may live.

My first reaction as --wha?? Then -- I wonder what Southern Baptists would think of that. \


The message was God is like a gentle, nurturing mother to us. And that others should see Christ at work in our lives through our gentleness and nurturing.

Edited to add there was a special music program, which made the service run over -- but it was selections from Messiah including the Hallekujah chours, which made me think of susanw

Florida Privatizes Child Welfare Programs

Because JEB! won't be happy until there are no government agencies left. He did say that from the beginning -- that he wanted a government with no agencies, no people, nothing.

President Bush claimed he only learned of the changes in passport rules regarding Canada and Mexico after reading an article in the newspaper.

read this .

first, I wasn't aware that the President read newspapers (which is scary enough as it is). But mostly,....

How the fuck does the President NOT know about this kind of policy change?????

What other things doesn't he know about?

susanw was discussing the new Little House on the Prairie mini series that ABC has been showing.

The actor who plays Charles Ingalls is hot. It's weird to think of Pa Ingalls as hot, but there you go. He's on this season of 24. And a couple of episodes of Highlander.

The guy who plays Mr. Edwards isn't bad looking either, although it's a wee bit hard to tell with the mountain man look. Of course I had to check him out on imdb as well. He was Lucas in Men with Guns with CKR. I haven't seen Men With Guns, but I think that just got added to my Netflix queue. At least I think it was.

Turns out he ws

I'm antsy for a sport to watch. Hockey took some of the shine off my enjoyment of pro football. I never had a team to root for anyway, and I still like it. But, my god!, I see why people bitch about it not being fast paced. That and if the game isn't close (or sometimes if it is) they just don't play the last half a minute because there's no point anyway. That kind of bothers me.

But right now -- no football. No hockey. Tennis doesn't hold my fancy like it used. I'm craving something to cheer for, something to watch, and I keep looking toward baseball. I keep saying that baseball is too long or too boring and people tell me I should go watch it in person. I guess I just need to sit down and watch a baseball game and see how I feel. There's basketball too, but I've actually tried to get into that and have failed. It's really a small thing, but I keep wanting to branch out and challenge my boundaries and what I say I do and don't like.

Also I won an item I was bidding on at ebay.

Unfortunaly I forgot to doublecheck what the shipping and handling was and if I'd just paid attention I could have gotten a similiar item for less because the shipping and handling was less.

How much does it cost to mail a pair of cropped pants to someone? I was checking around and some sellers had similiar items with shipping and handling about half of what I just paid.