Collected Thoughts

Mostly I have a headache, I've had it most of the evening I tried everything -- more caffiene, tons of water, what little pain relievers I have..nothing.

Plus I didn't realize I was out one of my meds until I got home and it was too late to get a refill. I didn't watch Lost last night because I wa sgoing to watch last night's and last week at the same time but I didn't. And then today I watched The Italian Job instead. Tomorrow.

I heard several co workers complaining about the state of tv and movies..how there is nothing on and it's all indecent etc. I heard one of them say that the rule in their house is "if it's not suitable for a three year old we don't watch it."

The HELL??? Judging from the few three year olds I know Wizard of Oz isn't suitable for them..so what? these people just don't watch it? People are screwy.

Work is going okay except for one document that I have got to find or figure away to get a replacement. I'm praying that tomorrow I find it.

Still haven't gotten my comic books yet!And discovered that my answering machine's been unplugged.

I did see The Incredibles and it was -- Incredible! I'm hoping for a sequel.

And finally...today and this weekend I went to follow a link to someone's lj and I found a color scheme of pale background and pale letters. Almost monochromatic. My monitor sucks and it makes it nigh impossible to read so I don't. Which is too bad because I think I'm missing out on something neat.

As for Xmas shopping I bought stuff today online and I hope I'm getting what I really wanted...it's a hard to find item..items... And this weekend is a not a crafts fair, but a thing that's put on every year with different vendors selling various stuff. There's an admission charge, which sucks, but it benefits an organization I like so I'll still go. I don't normally buy much there because the prices are sometimes out of my range butthere's intersting stuff and it's getting out in the world.

Gah. Head. Hurts. Ima going to bed after this.

I just found my UltraViolet Dvds!!! It's so weird,they were just sitting there next to the tv! And they weren't under the tv becuase I looked when I realized I'd lost them!

This is just too cool!

Spent a rather casual day. Made chicken soup for Dad. My brother tried to hook up the wi fi stuff for dad, but Bro needed to get in my room and I wouldn't let him until tomorrow. Of course it still looks like a 15 yr old boy lives in here and instead of getting a chunk of stuff done I went shopping (yay! shopping!).

I talked to his GF for a long time, I'm giving her my copy of House of Spirits, she expressed an interest and I happily handed it over. The more I talk to her the more I like her. She likes Buffy!

Tonight after I went shopping I went over to Mom's and Bro was downloading music, he was playing Alice's Restaurant for her because she'd never heard it before. And then she played some song and I can't remember the name, but we all knew it and ended up singing a long. Then she got him to play Baby Got Back and she and I ended up dancing around the living room singing, my Bro was kind of embarassed and kinda laughing at us. But hey! We had fun!


When I was shopping I sprayed some Bath and Body Works stuff on me and then some kind of perfume and I think it's triggered an allergy attack. I washed my arms off but I may need to take a shower before this.

Oh and we watched It's a Wonderful Life...at least until the "honeymoon"

Last night I read for a little while, then got online thinking "it's Tuesday...there's nothing on tv...right?" I should have checked because -- House! TAR! NCIS!

Actually I'm not sure how I feel about House, and I missed the first leg of TAR so I don't have a feel for the people.

Now, NCIS is a new thing for me. I like Abby and I like Ducky and I like the new guy. Actually I like all of the characters, I started watching the show by accident and it sort of grew on me. I wonder if it's out on dvd.

I'll have to remember and watch it if it's on next week. I think I assumed since Lost won't be on tonight that all of the programming was on hiatus.

My back feels great! I need to do pilates again. Except Dad came home and so I won't exercise again until he's gone. There's really not a lot of room in the living room...in fact I need to move some furniture around when I do work out again. But also Dad makes comments, not bad ones, just really helpful ones. He's not really comfortable with fat and he ends up saying things that I think he means to be encouraging but they aren't.

I also told him that I plan to spend Thanksgiving with Mom. He said he didn't like Thanksgiving so much now that it's mostly my cousin's in laws and some of our extended family. But I did point out that he could always host Thankgiving. I also asked him if he had plans to spend the holidays (TDay or Xmas) with his GF. He said no, and he got kinda quiet. Then he said that her family doesn't really approve of him. Part of me wants to be all "he's my dad! People should like him!" but then I realize that there's a possiblity he's OLDER THAN his GF's parents and I can see where the problem would be. And I don't think anyone on our side is really thinks the relationship is keen.

Driving home from work I was thinking about the holidays and I got kind of worried that Dad might want to have a dinner with me, my brother, and Dad's GF. Which would be beyond weird and I would make all kinds of excuses to get out of it.

I know I'm not only fat but I'm out of shape. I wanted someway to get inshape that wouldn't be ... well...aerobic or strenous. So I got Pilates for Weightloss and Yoga for Weightloss. They got here today and I watched some of them.

First-- I need to get a mat. Second--- the yoga one wants me to buy all this STUFF, boxes and balls and whatever. Third -- my GOD I'm out of shape. Fourth - Pilates was made for skinny people and I'm not sure how I can do several of the exercises becasue my stomach gets in the way. I'm fairly flexible but my stomach keeps getting in the way. I guess I'll just do what I can.

I was so so freaked out about going to work yesterday. Really freaked out. But I managed to stay calm and I went to work instead of faking sick. AND I cut one of my Seroquel in quarters and took a piece with me to work just in case I did freak out I could take soemthing to calm me down.

And I didn't need it! Of course Big Boss wasn't there, but Supervisor saw the email that had me freaked and she seemed non chalant about it, and pointed out that this is the first time anyone has mentioned communication problems to us. I hope by Monday I'll be more relaxed and won't be FREAK FREAK FREAK. But I'll still take some Seroquel just in case.

Went over and hung out with Mom and then with Bro and his GF. I really really like her, she's lots of fun, and nice, and totall into my bro in away his xSIL wasn't. The three of us went to dinner and he and I got to talk a little but the place was noisy so it was hard to have an indepth conversation.

( Family relations stuff )

theodosia is awesome! and is sending me the episode of Lost. I can't wait to see if my reaction is the same as everyone elses. Sunday I'm going to try and see Hero, which is at the dollar theater and I really need to see onscreen.

I'm back to where I have about 5 novels started, but I still want more books! I need to find that one last library book that's hiding out somewhere and take it back and start paying off my massive fine. There's non fiction stuff I want to read about, susanw's talk about her novel and her research ahs piqued my interest in that time period.

I washed some sweaters last night and threw them in the dryer but didn't put it on delicate.

They shrank slightly so they are too short and the sleeves are short.

Is there anyway to stretch them out?

These are brand new sweaters I've only worn once or twice so it's annoying.

Dad and brother are here!

My brother looks fantastic and like some actor I can't place. But he's lost weight! Or, he lost all his baby fat and now he's got lean muscle (I couldn't really tell he had loose shirt and jacket on) but his face is not baby fat ish anymore.

I'm fat. I'm fat. I'm fat. There's no way around it and HATE it but I have no self discpline. I need to try harder.

I'm 5'8"ish and I weigh 225 lbs. I just need to stop making excuses and go back on the South beach diet. I liked it, I felt better. I'm going to bed. Tomorrow I'm going to take some soup and salad to work for lunch.

And I need to exercise, so I'm going to try and find an exercise dvd I think I can do and get that because I get home too late to walk. I'm not in a very developed area so it gets really dark around here and I wouldn't want to walk after dark (mostly worried about cars).

I always say these things and then I never do them and I get so pissed at myself.

My brother and dad will be on the ground in roughly an hour. Dad will get home later than that, I'm supposed to be doing some last minute freak out cleaning. Except.

I read two awesome Due South stories. Just posted today 1 scorchingly hot the 2nd bitter sweet. I'm too lazy to remember titles. writers or links. Just. Yeah. Wait! nifrdil and pearl o wrote the bittersweet one nad hackthis wrote the scorcher.

Also House! House is going to be on at 9. Yo! I love Hugh Laurie! Except Amazing Race is going to be on at 9. What are they doing to me? Hopefully they'll rerun Amazing Race, I'm watching House. I think I might even tape House. It could suck and that would be sad. I don't want it to suck. The other day I was thinking of Chicago Hope -- didn't it debut the same year as ER? How freaking long has ER been on tv? ER's time has come and gone I think. And is Medical Investigation going to be cancelled any time soon? Neal McDonough needs to be on a kick ass show like Boomtown was. (my poor innovative Boomtown).

Today when I was goofing off at work (just for a bit!) I saw Yahoo had an article about how the general public is getting bored with reality shows, especially the more explotative ones. Not only that networks might not be interested in them any more because trying to sell them into syndication. I know Fear Factor has gone syndie but I can't imagine you can syndicate most of them.

Now, I'm off to throw stuff in the dryer and actually get some work done.