Collected Thoughts

I'm very impatient. Example-- I have a new computer.

Now, it's not the computer I was going to get. It's bigger (160G harddrive instead of 80) faster (um, I don't remember the specs off the top of my head) and a HP instead of Emachine. And I just got the tower. I was told yesterday that with Emachine it was either the whole package or nothing at all.

And all I wanted was the tower anyway. Now, I would have spent less if I had got the whole package + the rebates. But then I'd have a monitor, keyboard, printer, mouse, and speakers I didn't want.

I'm off to Sam's to go get the same speakers that my cousin bought yesterday.

I got MI-5 from Netflix. The first disc anyway. I haven't watched my tapes an awhile but I can tell the difference between what A&E showed and the actual shows. I ended up watching the deep fryer scene three times, I listed to the commentary during that section and it was interesting. I'm wondering if that section was cut a bit or if I'm not remembering all of it.

And then Tom huddled in the corner of the safe house waiting for Zoe...it's just wonderful. In a painful way.

I also watched disc 3 of Dead Like Me. It's not the best thing to watch when I don't want to go back to work. I hate knowing that there's only a few more episodes of season 1 and then season 2. Of course I may end up doing what I did with Sports Night and just not watch the final episodes.

And xmas was good to me. I have enough to ge ta computer RIGHT NOW!! I went to Best Buy with my brother yesterday to look at them. I found one that, with the rebates, is extremely affordable. Plus I can take the rebate money and get a larger hard drive to add and a flat panel monitor. Sam's had both for reasonable prices. I'm torn between doing that and looking around at Dell or ebay and try to get a better deal.

So I'm torn. Wonderful computer that works now!!! Or see if I can get a better deal in a bit. Part of me doesn't want to get stuck with a low end model like I did last time. But I also know more about computers and I think it's easier to upgrade things now than 5 yrs ago. Or whenever it was that I got the computer.

Back on Dad's computer, he and my bro are watching UAB and Hawaii play.

I was trolling through some personal ads (because I was bored at work yesterday...no really, I was just bored) and continued today (again bored and a little intrigued) when I came across a guy I knew. It was a jolt seeing his face. At first I wasn't sure but -- yep it was him. I knew him about 4 ish years ago, I was sleeping with his twin brother. We weren't really friens -- any of us. I just hung out with them and slept with one of them. Anyway the last time I saw them they were moving out of town and swearing never to come back here or anywhere near here.

According to the location on the profile he's not living very far from here. So much for going and never coming back. Makes me kind of wonder what his brother is up to.

Theother day I was all whoo! See my mad computer skillz!

ahem.

Yes well my stupid neglect of my computer and some how clicking on something I know damn well I shouldn't have has led to disaster. The current condition reminds me slightly of the Simpsons episode where the doctor inspect Mr. Burns and determined that Burns's body was like a door way and all the disease and whatnot were trying to get through at the same time but were stuck. A precarious balance where medicine would throw everything off and Burns would die.

My computer, evidentally, had that precarious balance and I shifted something out of whack and now it's just ..there.. I can turn it on but it takes a long damn time to start up and then it takes even longer for programs to start.

I will not be trying to repair my computer for a variety of reasons. Mostly it's not worth the time and money to try and figure this out. The computer is eitehr 5 or 6 years old, which in computer years is beyond ancient. Also if I do try to fix it then I'll try to use it and think "well, I could go a little while longer without trying to get a new computer."

I know I'm getting some money toward a computer for Xmas so I'm taking that and saving every cent and I'll talk to my cool co worker about helping me get a computer off ebay. It seems like the sensible thing to do. There is stuff on my computer I do want and I'm not sure how I'm going to get it off, but I'll figure it out.

So my only computer access will be at work or Mom's. Or maybe I could use Dad's, like I'm doing now, but I really dont' want to.

My Xmas shopping is done. I just finished making a certificate for my brother for a cd shopping spree, that will happen sometime after the first of the year. And I need to make him another to redeem for GNR's Appetite for Destruction which I downloaded to Mom's computer. Then I also got him a gift card to Border's. I found a book - a western-- to get Dad and I really hope it's not a gift giving disaster like giving him the book A River Runs Through It and having him tell me that it was okay except there was a lot of whoring and drinking in it. Gee thanks dad.

Then last year I got him the first novel of a local biology guy who has several non fiction books out..well out of print. I didn't really pay attention to the plot or the cover. The title is Potluck, it's about shrimpers who turn to pot smuggling when the shrimping goes bad. It not only says this on the back cover but on the front there is a big pot leaf. Which I totally ignored. I'm not sure how Dad liked it but knowing him it wasn't really the best gift. I did get him a non fiction book by this guy and I'm pretty sure he'll like it. Also got him a Gift card to Borders. Yay borders.

Mom is so easy to shop for so my biggest problem there was not picking up one more little thing.

Now I have to wrap a few more presents and do laundry so I have something besides pajamas to wear tomorrow.

Also, this no computer thing is going to put a cramp in my fic reading. Which sucks because all the secret santa challenges are coming up. I'm okay with reading some stuff on Mom's computer, but not nc-17 rated stuff. That's just weird.

I'm at work doing nothing ! Although there are things I could be doing because -- tomorrow's a holiday and I swear no one is here. okay boss was here but now she's gone. My supervisor called earlier to get my recipe for Sausage Breakfast Casserole.

( here's the recipe )

I was reading some Stargate fic and drabbles the other day and realized there are huge holes in my knowledge of SG. I've seen some episodes multiple times, so many, that I know most of the details, and there are many I've never seen. Plus I haven't seen a lot in order, although I can kind of place episodes by the actors hair styles.

I do have one question -- I don't know the details of Teal'c getting tretonin...so I'm not sure how it worked -- does he still have the pouch thing? If he were to run out of tertonin could he acquire a symboite and use one again?

Also is Nyan ever mentioned again? Because I liked his episode and I think they should have gone back and mentioned him at least once, something in passing so we know he's adapted okay.

Inquiring minds want to know.

Also everytime I hear the new version of Word Up! I keep thinking it might make a good Stargate vid. Or maybe I'm just weird.

I need to sit down and watch massive amounts of any show so I can write something again it's been way way too long.

I found my check book last night! I suddenlyrealized that omigod! I have to pay my car insurance...where the hell is the number!!

And I started looking in my "Important Documents" box and there was my checkbook. This is the same box I looked through two or three times yesterday. I have 2 checks left but that's okay because this weekend I'm going to cash a check to cover what I'm buying people for xmas.

I have to remember to be frugal though because I'll get paid on the 31st and then I'll be getting paid by the company and they pay every 2 weeks. So I need to save back some this week and next week.

My casseroles were a hit! Everything went off pretty well. I got a bit frazzled but then I just decided that I can't change anything and I'll just go with it. Which leads me to --

omigod! I'm, like, growing as a person and getting all mature!

One of my new year's resolutions is to get back into fannish stuff. Hopefully with the new computer I get I can start trying my hand at things like icon making and vids. Lately I've been dreaming about vidding. Vidding and threesomes.

Right now I could be in a total meltdown. But I'm not.

Reasons for possible meltdown:

I Can't find my checks or my debit card. they are both around here somewhere but my debit card's been awol since last weekend. I know it wasn't stolen because I remember leaving it in the house some place and not taking it out anywhere.

The bank will be closed on Friday. I'm on direct deposit so I'm not sure if the money will be to me on Thursday or Friday as usual. If it's Friday then I don't have a way to get the money out of the bank.

A year ago I would be in a blind panic. Actually I'd probably been in a blind panic three days ago. But still blind panic. Maybe even some hysterics. Six months ago totally freaking out.

Today. Annoyed, concerned, but no panic. I have a plan. I get the paperwork to authorize a transfer, get Dad to fill it out and turn it back in so I can transfer my money from my account to Dad's so he can get it to me. Or if that won't take effect right away order a new debit card. WHich I don't want to do becuase I just had to replace one and it costs money but if that's my only choice.

Also tomorrow is a retirement party for someone. I was told Friday afternoon to start collecting money for it. I got almost enough money to have a nice party. Made a breakfast casserole (we're doing a brunch type thing). Should have made double like I planned, but before it cooked it looked like it was going to be enough. I'm tempted to run to the store and get more milk (I was stupid and didn't get enough). But it would take another 30 mins or so to mix up and then it has to cook for 45 mins. Actually it's supposed to be refrigerated over night but I just put it in there for an hour or so . I really should have made two.

But we'll have that, fruit salad, and soem sandwich platters and cake.

Ack! Now I have to go to bed.

I'm at work, pretty much no one else is here so I'm goofing off.

Let's see. Didn't watch or tape the repeat of te premeire of Lost, I think I'll be regreting this but I plan on buying the dvds as soon as they come out.

Several nights ago I dreamed I was in a polyamorus relationship with Matt Damon and some other guy. Matt got mad because someone was trying to "out" him and he didn't think it was anyone's business.

Then the next night I dreamed I was in bed/having sex with two guys -- they were just random. I wonder if that means anything.

Two nights ago I dreamed about Sayid. It was very disjointed but basically we were on a trip all happy and then we ended up in the ocean and I had a hook in my finger so I was bleeding. There was a shark coming to get me so he pulled me out of the water. In the meantime this other guy (who looked like across between the assistant coroner on CSI and the LT on JAG with the one leg) was in teh water and the shark attacked him. Sayid & I end up traveling through the woods when he decides we have to go back and check on the other guy. We go back and the guy's arm has been ripped off (there was no blood, he had wires and tubes connecting his shoulder and arm) the people trying to help him started yelling at Sayid. Sayid tried to explain that he was so distraught over my situation that he couldn't think straight. And then he got all angsty and had to go brood alone.


I've started watching Dead Like Me. I love the show and am totally hooked, I hooked my friend EJ as well and now we are both waiting for the next disc to come from Netflix.

I realised the other day that SG1, Atlantis, and Battlestar Galatica were all going to be on Fridays. I really need a Tivo.

I've finally been blocked at work from using b.org, I wondered when that would happen. I'm pretty sure lj will be next.

btw b.org was blocked for porn.

Still have not seen Hero. Saw Bourne Supremecy first, I looked at the times and decided I was more in the mood for Matt Damon. My reaction to the movie is OMIGOD!! MY EYES!!!! seriously I think the hand held camera work nearly blinded me. I have NO CLUE as to what happened during the fight or in ANY of the car chases. It was just a blurry choatic mess. Could any one follow what was going on? Wish I had seen Hero. I might go tomorrow after work.

My god it's SUnday Night! Swear to god I woke up both mornings freaked out I was going to be late for work, only to remember that it was not a week day. I feel like I just left work last night. I don't know what's happened but for the past few weeks time has just raced by. I turn around and another week's done. I hate this feeling and I wish I could make it stop. There just doesn't seem like enough time to do anything.

And I forgot to get my refills today, well I was going to wait until I got groceries since I use the grocery store pharmacy -- except they closed before I go there so no refills. I'm moving my scrips to a 24 pharmacy so I don't have to worry about this. I have 1 Seroquel and that's it. Unless I can find something that mabye fell under my night table (that happens occasionally). I have no idea how I'm going to get to sleep or get enough sleep without my meds.

However, I did finally watch both episodes of Lost -- Sayid!! Claire and Charlie!!