Collected Thoughts

Finished Supernatural! There was much flailing and I will even admit to getting teary eyed when John was in the hotel room finally reunited with the boys. Dean went up to hug him easily and then John and Sam sort of stood there awkwardly and I kept thinking "hug! Sammy hug your Dad! John Hug your son!" and finally they did and it made me happy. And then those shadow demons showed up and tore the family apart again. My heart broke a little and I LOVED every minute of it!

I haven't felt this mixed up -- sad, happy, things are going great! wait TPTB just ripped out my hear and stomped on it since Buffy and Angel. BSG has had a few moments, but it's big and sprawling with lots of characters and here this is concentrated to Sam and Dean and John.

Plus how can I not love a show that has TWO Lord King Bad Vids as canon. Seriously.

I've also watched hockey (yay we won, Prospal broke his streak of 21 games with no goal. I love watching him play normally because he's so animated and it's great to see his reaction to scoring. He got hit right after he shot the puck and was lying on the ice. He just laid there and covered his face with his hands.). I love watching hockey players celebrate goals.

And I just watched The Thin Man. I have the boxed set but wanted to start from the beginning. Now I'm about to watch Hero since I've had it forever from Netflix. This weekend I've also cleaned out my fridge (which was nasty) and cleaned it, did some laundry and spent a small fortune on healthy groceries-- refrained. So I wasn't entirely slothful.

After Hero I'm going to watch The Closer (which is also from Netflix)and hope that S2E1 of Supernatural is done downloading. And watch Dexter.

Awww! Dean! Awww Sammy!!! Flail!!

This stuff is like crack. I normally don't watch horror movies because I just can't take them but these are like nice mini horror movies that are just my style. Except with complex family relationships.

I got a lot of cool stuff for Xmas. It was the Xmas of sharp cutty things because Dad gave me 2 ceramic blade knives and a mandolin type slicer. He also gave Mom a knife. And I got 3 cookbooks and a warm fuzzy blanket and a cute little stuffed dog (I named Noel the Christmas Puppy) and the entire Thin Man dvd collection plus other stuff. And Money! Lovely green money.

I went and bought Supernatural and The Tick and Lost Boys ($5 at Best Buy - what a deal! And then I bought some books and calendars. I bought a Gorey desk calendar for work and a Lightning Calendar for home.

And tonight I watched the first 3 episodes of Supernatural! There was Dean and Sam and Amy Acker and Callum Keith Rennie, looking all hot and woodsy. If he didn't talk I could easily picture him as Ray K living with Fraser off in Canada somewhere. But then his character got killed. Thankfully Amy Acker didn't get killed.

Mostly there was Sam and Dean. Aww! Dean with the little boy talking about how his mother died and he thought she wanted him to be brave and awww! I wanted to hug him and give him soup. I said this over at b.org, also that he'd probably cop a feel and proposition me. The lovely Min said that it was part of his charm and I have to agree.

Granted I've only seen a bit of Dean, but he's so blantant in his pick up attempts and he's hot, he looks like he just wants to have some fun. If I were some waitress or clerk in some sheriff's office and he flashed that smile at me and tried a lame pick up line I just might let myself fall for it. Dean would be a night (or afternoon) of fun, nothing really fancy and no promises, it's be easy to succumb to his charm knowing what you were getting. Take him back to your place or to a motel room. He wouldn't stay the night or cuddle or anything like that. Just fun sex and then he'd be off. Maybe after he killed something (but you wouldn't know what was going on, just that after they leave the weird freaky shit stops) just that he and Sammy weren't really Park Rangers/Texas Marshalls/Grief Counselors. He's leaving anyway and you'll never see him again and damn he's hot but with cheesy pick up lines, but with that smile...what the hell. And it's fun. And then he drives off with Zeppelin blaring from the radio and after that when ever you see a car like that or hear that song it would bring back fond memories. The kind of nice memories that a good girl isn't supposed to have.


Or something like that...too bad I have to go to work tomorrow and can't catch up on fic.

I'm not finished. Dad's finished. Mom's finished. I found the perfect gift for Grandma E. Need to get something more for my b.org secret santa person. Need to get something else for the FSIL. And I need to figure out what to send to G'ma, which will be sent after Xmas. I'm going to call my Aunt J and ask if sending a bouquet of artifical flowers would be a good ideaa, then after Xmas I could go to Michael's and put one together. I was thinking that it would be a good idea because she'd have something pretty to look at but my aunt wouldn't be responsible for taking care of anything.

I went to the doctor yesterday and they prescribed Metformin for the PCOS. It's a medication for diabetes but it helps get the insulin under control, which will help get my hormones back on track. Next Thursday I have a lovely pelvic ultrasound to look forward to. Then I have a follow up appointment in January. There are side effects to the Metformin, so instead of starting at a full dose I'm working my way up. Right now I'm taking 1 500 mg pill after dinner. I'll work my way up to 2 in the morning after breakfast (which I'll have to start eating) and 2 after dinner. From what I've read the excess weight will start melting off and I'm so looking foward that because I'm the heaviest I've ever been.

I always say that. This is the heaviest I've ever been and then I gain weight. I know people who have clothes from years past, from high school even, and not me. Because I'm always my heaviest and I'm always too fat for clothes bought last season. And I don't eat that badly, really. I really hope I can lose the weight.

I'm so disorganized and I hate myself.

Since my wallet got stolen, which was this summer, I haven't really gotten a replacement and I've just been using change purses or just throwing everthing in my purse.

Anyway, Wednesday it looks like I threw away my debit card in the trash.

Today. I had to go to the library. So I put my driver'slicesnce in my change purse and my money I got from the bank -- $60. And now I've lost it. i put the money in, I went to get dressed and then it's a blank. I thought I put it in my pocket, but I got the library to check out and it wasn't there so I thought, well I left it at home. Except it's not there, I went to the library and looked and asked and left my number hopefully someone will turn it in if it's there.

This happens to me all the time becaus eI'm so disorganized and I have no idea how to get my life on track. It's just constantly spinning my wheels and I just.. @#%#(%*#)*%@)*!!!! I can't stop cussing myself out.

I was productive today. First I went and switched my cable box to a HD DVR. I wasn't going to get the dvr part, but ...well... I don't eat out a few times a month and that covers the increase (my internet special price is running out). Then I came home and set up the tv and discovered that somehow I get all the cable channels. Even HBO, Showtime, and Cinemax. I don't know if this is a limited thing or if it's going to cut off anytime soon, but I'm going to enjoy it while it lasts.

Mom and I watched the game and when we started duing badly we switched over and watched Ms Congenality 2 on HBOD.

OMIGOD! I love HDTV. It's amazing. I'm waiting for the On Demand stuff to kick in (I was told it could take up to 24 hrs with a new box) so I can watch some hockey from Versus HD on Demand.

And furniture has been re-arranged and there's room for the recliner in the living room and I put down this rug Mom got (from the side of the road and it's kind of dirty but it can be cleaned) so now the rug marks off the "living area" and once I get my book cases up in the bedroom and out of the dining area I can make a more defined dining area.

Then in my bedroom -- I'm going to make a library corner, with a couple of bookcases and a recliner. A mini library!

I came into a bit of money and wanted to upgrade my tv (from the 20" 8 or so years old). So I took advantage of the Thanksgiving sales and I'm now the proud owner of a 27" LCD HDTV! Which I've named The Giant Overlord. I have to go in tomorrow to change out my digital cable box to a HD box.

There's a big football game tomorrow and I think instead of going to the game I'm going to sit back, relax, and watch it on the Giant Overlord.


Right now I'm watching hockey on the Overlord. I spent a lot of money but I did get a good deal and I realized that a good tv is something I want to spend money on. I'm fine with getting my furniture second hand, there's a couch at Goodwill that I was eyeing -- $50! But it's kind of rough looking, comfy but rough looking. But this is a huge splurge and I love it. I just have to get the PS2 (my brother's I'm keeping while he's away) and the dvd player hooked up.

Evidentally I promised to make chili for a cook off, fundraiser thing today. I forgot until I was reminded.

We're having a cold snap and I don't know what happened to all my sweaters so after I work I looked for sweaters and I either didnt like the sweaters or the ones I liked were too expensive.

So I came home and made chili. Well, first off I sliced open my pinkie finger and then made chili. I have no idea if it will be edible since I used some chili powder, a bit of some chili seasoning mix, and some chilies in adobo sauce. But not a lot of those. It's Pink and Black Bean Chili with Corn.

I also bought brownie mix for the bake sale aspect but that's not happening. I'm going to cite my cut finger as a reason.

I've never finished a Jane Austen novel. I've started Pride and Prejuidce and Emma and never got past the first few chapters, the books just didn't grab me so I moved Austen to my "Authors I Don't Like" list.

But I keep trying to read her books because I have them and I'm determined to read all the books I own. The other night I was bored and casting about for something to read and I found Mansfield Park. I know next to nothing about the book, it's an old paperback edition, but I figured what the heck, if it didn't interest me maybe it would bore me to sleep.

Except I like it. Totally unexpected. I'm not even 100 pages in yet and it's slow going (I lost track of who Mrs. Grant was at one point) but it's very enjoyable. I'd totally given up on Emma because I've started it several times and I've decided I just don't like the character Emma.